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Last day of work before i head for raya holiday. Finally.. It is just a few more hours to kill. I’m still laid back here. Working is not a passion for me now.  It seems like i’m starting to get bored with almost everything  i had. I can’t seem to find the real thing or even something that i should lean forward to. This is so dangerous. I guess i am now in midst of understanding myself. Argh.. I just don’t know how to get back to normal. I wish this interval will pass without me making a wrong decision in the end.  It’s just about time i need to decide for myself. But the thing is i’m just too afraid to try or even to indulge to the thing i wanted. Might be i’m still feeling insecure of my own capabilities. 

Right here, right now i’m seeing more and more people tendering their resignation after they received their bonus.  Haha.. I can’t say more as more people will look forward to upgrade themselves. But of course, jobhopping will always be an option. Only that when exactly will we be satisfied with the thing we had. And the answer will remains, we will never be grateful and satisfied. We always wanted to look up for something better. It’s a good thing but there’s always pros and cons. And i wouldn’t want to think of that yet.

Now, i just need to struggle harder to figure out what exactly i want out of my life. The real question is how am i supposed to be sure that my decision is correct. Life is always a gamble. Only that we need to play it right and understand the risks. As ‘confused’ is my middle name i admit i sometimes just let things be the way it is. Things like this keeps coming repeatedly and in the end we rely truly on ourselves. We who decide on our own and others can only serve as guidelines..  

One sure thing is Raya is around the corner and wishing all Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin..

**~~another piece of junk from hani